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Notes from the Hill's avatar

I almost didn’t post this because it felt a little strange to explain.

Curious if anyone else has ever had something like this happen while writing or remembering.

Sarah Morrell's avatar

As a counsellor I can say that it has been reasonably common for clients to bring this experience to a session. I think when we are being creative we make space for all our unprocessed stuff to pop up.

Notes from the Hill's avatar

That makes a lot of sense. thank you, it definitely felt that way.

Cory's avatar

Oof, I related to this very heavily. A lot of things we hold inside seems to rush forward when we let our creativity flow. It's almost like we store those parts alongside it, or draw partly from there, too.

We build parts of our stories built on the life we have lived after all.

Beautiful, work. Sending you much love. ❤️

HVR's avatar

I relate. There's much we brush off as normal or normal enough. Even when they are not. We don't want to believe it.

Zee's avatar

It makes sense 🫶🏼

Notes from the Hill's avatar

thanks so much for reading 💜

Decipher Yourself's avatar

I needed Kevin in it, made it all even more meaningful.

Notes from the Hill's avatar

everyone needs a Kevin!!! ❤️💜💙

Jamie Lee Hodgkin's avatar

🏅best hugs / best friends /

And an unfortunate period of

Batshit Crazy in Las Vegas

Turning point,

I looked a junkie

But I wasn't

Actually, I still ate mostly

Plants and juices

Probably would have taken me

To a center back then we the

Two owls started calling,

In murdered, syncopated

Beats

Fingers always tapping under the table.

He was curious. Yes.

He asked good questions,

And checked in for reciprocity

Actually, she knew he was the

Only person she actually needed

And she said, "I got this. I 👁️ so clearly. Again and again until it turns out she

Wasn't.

His type. Maybe cancer and the Black Flag had made her too boring.

No more festivals,

No more plans

Except him icing the shit out of my hands,

Something more sinister,

Maybe

But he did offer sexy saunas, and knew when to leave me cool in the crisp pool

Of recognition

They showed up more than anyone.

@karen__gaar second 🥈

And they wrote Christmas

Cards that still break my

Cuore-

#divato

#amato

#amores

#dareme

"Keep me a light on,

Or its your specific

Scarf, and stupid

But eddective

Beanie.

It was the only thing that warmed me for approximately 12hrs until Monday morning,

Who fired first?

Doesn't matter.

We both died

Now I'm a powerhouse swimmer

Painting over new memories

Ti celebrate that AI does not

Think I'm manic.

Just deficient in potassium. That was always the problem

Should probably get out

Of this lobster festival

And go date my

-tennis teacher who is comfortable as the executive. He drops all the C class suites.

The private jets.

Retired a while

Ago

Wants to take me to dinner

I forget, show up sweaty

He says I'm the best

Smelling lady in

This tapas bar

I touch his arm.

We have established

That we are both human

And can identify personal

Faults without prompting

Notes from the Hill's avatar

This is really intense, and really beautiful in parts. I don’t know that I fully understand all of it, but I can feel it.

It feels like one of those chapters where everything is a lot, and then something shifts and you’re not the same after.

I’m really glad you shared this.