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Fiona Bridges's avatar

Beautifully written KK. ❤️

Laura Lynch's avatar

OMG! This is heartbreaking! Thank you so much for sharing!

Saranya's avatar

so profound! waiting for more... 💛

Eric Mark's avatar

Man, the power of breaking the silence. This is powerful. Every single time I take something like this in my life and put it to words, I'm changed. Thanks for sharing.

Oğuz Birinci's avatar

Beautifully expressed 🙌

Blanka🦋's avatar

I read your writing and it’s very powerful! I am sorry you have such a complicated relationship with him, but it seems to me that you are strong enough to process it. Good luck with writing your novel!

aham satya's avatar

This is an amazing way to express the feeling of wanting to hate someone, but being unable to.

I feel this pretty often, whenever people do me wrong, and it's one of the things I, funnily enough, hate.

But yeah, this definitely was something I feel connected to, great job!!!!

A. Dimitri's avatar

Beautifully written 👏

Shannon Vanne's avatar

I know someone who fits this in my own experiences. Very good read, thank you.

James (HVR)'s avatar

Is this rereleased? It looks familiar.

I do get it. At the same time, hate might be worse and become time-consuming.

That wouldn't be fun either.

I hope you find piece.

Notes from the Hill's avatar

I think you read this before but I have not released it here until now 🙂. Honestly our relationship has changed alot since my stepmother passed, in a good way!

Gathering the Pieces of Me's avatar

Heart wrenching and cathartic. When we write about the past, it’s freeing and uncomfortable same time.

Notes from the Hill's avatar

Thank you so much for reading and commenting. I was sobbing after I wrote this and again when rereading it.

Gathering the Pieces of Me's avatar

I do that often. 🥹 I think the act of putting the words down is the first release. Then to read them again and realising you took that first step and chose to be vulnerable for you, that is the next letting go moment. Big hug. You did a great job. 🥰

Brook Woolf (they)'s avatar

hate would be cleaner, because yes. grief dressed as anger at least has somewhere to go. but love that has to learn a new distance… that has no clean form. it just lives in you, reshaping itself.

loving from afar isn’t the absence of love. sometimes it’s the most honest expression of it. i can love what you were and grieve what you couldn’t be and still keep myself safe from what the dynamic does to me. all of that at once.

Notes from the Hill's avatar

That is beautifully said, and yes, exactly. Hate would be cleaner. It’s the love that has to change shape and keep living somewhere else that is so much harder to carry. Thank you for really getting it.

Sarah Levis's avatar

You've definitely got me interested. :) I'll be waiting to read more!

Notes from the Hill's avatar

thank you so much- I saved one of your pieces to read :)

Aaron's avatar

Really interesting read ❤️

Gary L Taylor's avatar

Very real words. Really well done.

pm's avatar

Such a beautiful piece💛💛💛Stunning💛💛